Do what YOU want to do!

When I first started college I really didn't know what to expect. I was really nervous and I didn't really have anyone the whole of my first year at college apart from Kev, because I had fallen out with all my "Friends". 

I know that some of you may be in a similar situation because I have spoken to some of you on Twitter. When I was in year 11 I chose the college I wanted to go to because at that point, all of my Friends were going there too and I didn't want to be alone, also they were doing the subjects which I wanted to take at the time. 

After completing my first year at college, hardly having no one to talk to, being on my own and constantly not wanting to be in college at all as it didn't make me happy, I realised that this was not what I wanted to do at all. The college I went to was a sixth form and it was more like school than a college. It wasn't enjoyable and all the teachers kept talking about was exams and university every single lesson and it made me even more anxious and made me panic. A lot!! 

I then thought to myself, after completing my last exam and leaving college for the summer, that I did not want to go back there and I shouldn't of been a sheep and followed the crowd from the start. But I had to learn that for myself as I didn't know what to expect from my first year.

You have got to chose the Subjects or Course that you want to do and not what everyone else chooses. If you feel like you are alone and don't feel welcome or comfortable in your college then the best advice I can give you is to switch colleges and find a college more to your liking. (This is what I did) If you have fallen out with all of your friends or you can't stand the people in your year group, which is sometimes the case, then going to a completely different college to everyone else would be the better option. 

It can be daunting starting a college all on your own and not knowing anybody but you soon make new friends who are much friendlier than your old friends and most of the time, different colleges offer a wider variety of courses to chose from.

I was in this exact position and now I am in a totally different college on a Childcare course, I am much happier and feel as though my anxiety levels have crept down slightly. I do have to get up really early to get the train but it is worth it as the college is so much better with so many lovely people too!! 

If any of you need advice or anyone to talk to about situations like this, please send me a message on twitter or a comment below I would love to be able to help you because it's though making a decision on your own. 

I hope this post is helpful, I felt as though I needed to write this post to try and give a little advice or guidance.

Have a great Day/Evening/ Night 

Melishia x

P.S- Don't be the sheep that follows the crowd, be the sheep that goes on it's own adventure.